I have touched the brains of my father

I have touched the brains of my father
on the back seat where he landed;
I have seen him zipped in the carpetbag
laid out like John F. Kennedy.
 
I have lifted his blood-drenched jacket,
looking for his wedding band;
I have smelled the mixture of chemicals
from his snow-covered car
parked in the impound lot.
 
I faced his mortality
on the night of his death;
I helped Mom spread his ashes,
giving them to the mountain he loved.
 
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July 4, 2022

I have touched the brains of my father

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2022/07/i-have-touched-brains-of-my-father.html

&

February 14, 2021

thirty years ago tonight

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/thirty-years-ago-tonight.html

February 14, 2021

When love became loss

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/when-love-became-loss.html

February 14, 2021

I miss you Dad

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/i-miss-you-dad.html

February 13, 2021

Thirty years ago

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/thirty-years-ago.html

February 13, 2021

processing history

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/processing-history.html

30^th anniversary of black ice car accident death

of my father, Arthur Leon Foss, Jr.,

Rochester, NH

near Mile Marker 19

Spaulding Turnpike

before it was separated lanes

&

edited December 28, 2019

Did You Hear Her Cry, Her Moan – v2

https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210959183585173506

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2019/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-her-moan-v2.html

stanza 1 – https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210957493498724355

stanza 2 – https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210957591855144960

edited/new name December 28, 2019

Did You Hear Her Cry, Her Moan

https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210953837240029185

https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2019/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-her-moan.html

edited January 22, 2016

Did You Hear Her Cry – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3_22.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3_21.html

(merging original and version 2)

edited January 21, 2016

Crushed – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2_21.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2_56.html

posted March 6, 2004

written 1/9/04 – 14:35-14:40

Crushed

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/crushed.html 

– about cleaning out my father’s car the day after his fatal accident. The weather was very cold and the passenger door was where the gearshift would be. The license plate of the car that ran into his was there too. The glasses he wore were in the right rearmost spot and his watch was in the left rearmost part of the car. The driver seat was broken backward from the force of the accident and his blood was on the backseat where he landed.

&

edited January 11, 2016

Black Ice – v4

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4_11.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4_83.html

(editing version 3)

edited September 1, 2012

Black Ice – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/black-ice-v3.html

Edited August 31, 2012

“Black Ice – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/08/black-ice-v2.html

December 12, 2007

“Black Ice”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2007/12/black-ice.html

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edited December 29, 2015

Demons – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2_29.html

edited December 29, 2015

Did You Hear Her Cry – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2_29.html

edited December 29, 2015

The Crash – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-crash-v2.html

posted February 14, 2004

(the 13^th anniversary of my father’s fatal accident)

written June 18, 2001 10:54pm

The Crash

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/crash.html

about my father's death

February 14, 1991

and my car accident

the day I applied to law school

edited December 18, 2015

The Submariner – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-submariner-v2.html

&

edited December 17, 2015

Meticulous – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/meticulous-v2.html

&

edited December 18, 2015

Adam Asked – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/adam-asked-v2.html

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edited October 22, 2015

Did you brace for impact – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/did-you-brace-for-impact-v2.html

edicted October 22, 2015

Mile Marker 19 – v8

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/mile-marker-19-v8.html

(editing original)

edited October 5, 2015

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v9

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v9.html

(editing version 5)

&

edited October 3, 2015

Why on this day – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3_5.html

(editing original)

edited October 19, 2014

Why on this day – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/10/why-on-this-day-v2.html

July 1, 2014

Why on this day

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/07/why-on-this-day.html

“My Prayers Weekend!”

“Next Day Stretch”

draft a note to God

about a day when you struggled

with a big question

for June 29, 2014

read June 30, 2014

&

edited June 27, 2014

A vivid memory – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory-v2.html

June 27, 2014

A vivid memory

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory.html

Matthew 28:20 (NRSV)

Romans 8:31-39

Upper Room Daily Devotional

“In Dark Times”

http://devotional.upperroom.org/devotionals/2014-06-26 

by Don Greeley

about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml

for June 26, 2014

read June 27, 2014

Upper Room Daily Devotional

for March and April 2014

http://devotional.upperroom.org/issues/may-jun%202014

&

edited August 15, 2015

Here it comes – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/here-it-comes-v3.html

(editing version 2)

edited January 12, 2014

Here it comes – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes-v2.html

January 12, 2014

Here it comes

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes.html

January 12, 2014

I am not ready

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/i-am-not-ready.html

(conversation by Dean McKenney about his

bad car accident 40 years ago)

January 12, 2014

an accounting to God

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/an-accounting-to-god.html

January 12, 2014

Honor their walk

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/honor-their-walk.html

Romans 14:10-12

Romans 14:1-12

Romans 14

Men’s Bible Study

led by Steve Curtis

Stetson Memorial United Methodist Church

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stetson-Memorial-United-Methodist-Church/174161846023512

Patten, ME

January 12, 2014

&

edited August 4, 2015

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v8

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/like-venus-fly-trap-v8.html

(editing version 5)

edited May 9, 2015

Ten Years – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/ten-years-v2.html

April 23, 2004

Ten Years

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/04/ten-years.html

see also

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edited January 11, 2014

Mile Marker 19 – v7

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/mile-marker-19-v7.html

(editing version 6)

Edited November 9, 2013

Mile Marker 19 – v6

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/mile-marker-19-v6.html

(editing version 3)

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edited March 21, 2015

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v7

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/03/like-venus-fly-trap-v7.html

(editing version 5)

edited December 3, 2014

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v6

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v6.html

(editing version 3)

Edited November 9, 2013

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v5”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/like-venus-fly-trap-v5.html

Edited October 24, 2013

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v4”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v4.html

Edited October 11, 2013

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v3.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Like the Venus Fly Trap”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap.html

edited February 11, 2014

“hiding in the ice – v9”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/hiding-in-ice-v9.html

edited January 4, 2014

“hiding in the ice – v8”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/hiding-in-ice-v8.html

(editing version 5)

Edited September 28, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v7”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v7.html

 (editing version 3)

Edited September 28, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v6”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v6.html

(editing version 2)

Edited September 25, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v5”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v5.html

Edited August 2, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v4”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/hiding-in-ice-v4.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“hiding in the ice – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v3.html

Edited December 21, 2012

“hiding in the ice – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v2.html

December 21, 2012

“hiding in the ice”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Animated / Evil – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Animated / Evil”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“A latent danger – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v3.html

December 20, 2012

“A latent danger – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v2.html

“A latent danger”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Smiling in the freezing – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/smiling-in-freezing-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Smiling in the freezing”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/the-water-changing-life-giving-elixir.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“A frozen trap – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“A frozen trap”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“was the road innocent – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent-v2.html

December 21, 2012

“was the road innocent”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Did the ice know – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Did the ice know”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know.html

series of new poems

also about my father’s death,

after reviewing poem by Jacob Montgomery,

“Icy Lanes”,

(see more of his poems at:

http://soggytractor.wordpress.com )

and exchanging emails with him about that poem

and my father’s death

2/14/1991

&

Edited August 22, 2013

“eyes not shut – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut-v2.html

August 22, 2013

“eyes not shut”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut.html

a poem in conjured after reading poem

“TATTOOS AND ATTITUDE”

https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2/posts/503630106394453

by Chip Bergeron

https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2

http://www.authorsden.com/chipbergeron

&

Edited September 20, 2012

new poem, “Did you brace for impact”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/did-you-brace-for-impact.html

&

Edited September 20, 2012

“Mile Marker 19 – v5”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v5.html

&

Edited September 12, 2012

“Mile Marker 19 – v4”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v2.html

editing version 2 below

&

Edited September 12, 2012

“Mile Marker 19 – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v3.html

editing the original again

inspired by reading it at Poets’ Corner

monthly poetry reading,

at the Suncook Senior Center

September 10, 2012

&

edited June 6, 2012 (adding an additional last stanza)

“Mile Marker 19 – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/06/mile-marker-19-v2.html

&

October 2, 2011

Did You Hear Her Cry

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/10/did-you-hear-her-cry.html

after rereading earlier poem,

“Mile Marker 19”

&

Edited April 23, 2013

“No Life in Your Eyes – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/04/no-life-in-your-eyes-v2.html

February 11, 2011

“No Life in Your Eyes”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/02/no-life-in-your-eyes.html

remembering the 20^th anniversary

of my father’s death, February 14, 1991

written at the House of Purpose coffeehouse

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/Purpose/298439882520

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/The-House-Of-Purpose/357853918881

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/event.php?eid=132438993489979

Hillsboro, NH

February 11, 2011

&

new poem February 11, 2014

Where you are scattered

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/where-you-are-scattered.html

posted March 22, 2004

written 2/26/2001

Adam Asked

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/adam-asked.html

posted March 18, 2004

written March 6, 2001

Meticulous

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/meticulous.html

posted March 17, 2004

written 3/2/2001 and 3/5/2001

The Submariner

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/submariner.html

posted February 18, 2004

edited April 25, 2015

Home Again – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/home-again-v2.html

edited April 23, 2015

Your final resting place – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/your-final-resting-place-v2.html

edited April 25, 2015

Ashes – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/ashes-v2.html

March 2, 2001

“Ashes”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/ashes.html

posted February 18, 2004

March 2, 2001

“Home Again”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/home-again.html

&

posted March 10, 2004

written April 3, 2001 8:47am

Demons

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/demons.html

&

posted February 8, 2004

original version written 5/20/2000

“Mile Marker 19”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/mile-marker-19_08.html

posted to my blog on February 8, 2004,

as the 15^th poem put on the site -

about my father’s fatal car accident

near Mile Marker 19

on the Spaulding Turnpike

Rochester, NH

February 14, 1991 at 7:02pm

Valentine’s Day

 

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