Thirty years ago
After dinner, the world frozen
I received a phone call
the police hesitant
asking my name
seeking to confirm
I was your son, your child,
that I was close by
that I could come.
Thirty years ago
leaving for the hospital
calling my brother
to get to the house.
Shepherded into the room
my mind spinning, not right,
chrome too bright, otherworldly,
seeing you lying there
on the table, readying you,
to continue on your journey
from there to the funeral home
in the cold that night.
Thirty years ago
leaving the hospital
confirming your identity
that you were dead.
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February 13, 2021
Thirty years ago
February 13, 2021
processing history
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/processing-history.html
30th anniversary of black ice car accident death
of my father, Arthur Leon Foss, Jr.,
Rochester, NH
near Mile Marker 19
Spaulding Turnpike
before it was separated lanes
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edited December 28, 2019
Did You Hear Her Cry, Her Moan – v2
https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210959183585173506
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2019/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-her-moan-v2.html
stanza 1 – https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210957493498724355
stanza 2 – https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210957591855144960
edited/new name December 28, 2019
Did You Hear Her Cry, Her Moan
https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210953837240029185
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2019/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-her-moan.html
edited January 22, 2016
Did You Hear Her Cry – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3_22.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3_21.html
(merging original and version 2)
edited January 21, 2016
Crushed – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2_21.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2_56.html
posted March 6, 2004
written 1/9/04 – 14:35-14:40
Crushed
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/crushed.html
– about cleaning out my father’s car the day after his fatal accident. The weather was very cold and the passenger door was where the gearshift would be. The license plate of the car that ran into his was there too. The glasses he wore were in the right rearmost spot and his watch was in the left rearmost part of the car. The driver seat was broken backward from the force of the accident and his blood was on the backseat where he landed.
&
edited January 11, 2016
Black Ice – v4
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4_11.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4_83.html
(editing version 3)
edited September 1, 2012
Black Ice – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/black-ice-v3.html
Edited August 31, 2012
“Black Ice – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/08/black-ice-v2.html
December 12, 2007
“Black Ice”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2007/12/black-ice.html
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edited December 29, 2015
Demons – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2_29.html
edited December 29, 2015
Did You Hear Her Cry – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2_29.html
edited December 29, 2015
The Crash – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-crash-v2.html
posted February 14, 2004
(the 13th anniversary of my father’s fatal accident)
written June 18, 2001 10:54pm
The Crash
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/crash.html
about my father's death
February 14, 1991
and my car accident
the day I applied to law school
edited December 18, 2015
The Submariner – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-submariner-v2.html
&
edited December 17, 2015
Meticulous – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/meticulous-v2.html
&
edited December 18, 2015
Adam Asked – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/adam-asked-v2.html
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edited October 22, 2015
Did you brace for impact – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/did-you-brace-for-impact-v2.html
edicted October 22, 2015
Mile Marker 19 – v8
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/mile-marker-19-v8.html
(editing original)
edited October 5, 2015
Like the Venus Fly Trap – v9
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v9.html
(editing version 5)
&
edited October 3, 2015
Why on this day – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3_5.html
(editing original)
edited October 19, 2014
Why on this day – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/10/why-on-this-day-v2.html
July 1, 2014
Why on this day
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/07/why-on-this-day.html
“My Prayers Weekend!”
“Next Day Stretch”
draft a note to God
about a day when you struggled
with a big question
for June 29, 2014
read June 30, 2014
&
edited June 27, 2014
A vivid memory – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory-v2.html
June 27, 2014
A vivid memory
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory.html
Matthew 28:20 (NRSV)
Romans 8:31-39
Upper Room Daily Devotional
“In Dark Times”
http://devotional.upperroom.org/devotionals/2014-06-26
by Don Greeley
about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml
for June 26, 2014
read June 27, 2014
Upper Room Daily Devotional
for March and April 2014
http://devotional.upperroom.org/issues/may-jun%202014
&
edited August 15, 2015
Here it comes – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/here-it-comes-v3.html
(editing version 2)
edited January 12, 2014
Here it comes – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes-v2.html
January 12, 2014
Here it comes
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes.html
January 12, 2014
I am not ready
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/i-am-not-ready.html
(conversation by Dean McKenney about his
bad car accident 40 years ago)
January 12, 2014
an accounting to God
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/an-accounting-to-god.html
January 12, 2014
Honor their walk
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/honor-their-walk.html
Romans 14:10-12
Romans 14:1-12
Romans 14
Men’s Bible Study
led by Steve Curtis
Stetson Memorial United Methodist Church
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stetson-Memorial-United-Methodist-Church/174161846023512
Patten, ME
January 12, 2014
&
edited August 4, 2015
Like the Venus Fly Trap – v8
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/like-venus-fly-trap-v8.html
(editing version 5)
edited May 9, 2015
Ten Years – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/ten-years-v2.html
April 23, 2004
Ten Years
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/04/ten-years.html
see also
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edited January 11, 2014
Mile Marker 19 – v7
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/mile-marker-19-v7.html
(editing version 6)
Edited November 9, 2013
Mile Marker 19 – v6
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/mile-marker-19-v6.html
(editing version 3)
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edited March 21, 2015
Like the Venus Fly Trap – v7
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/03/like-venus-fly-trap-v7.html
(editing version 5)
edited December 3, 2014
Like the Venus Fly Trap – v6
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v6.html
(editing version 3)
Edited November 9, 2013
“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v5”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/like-venus-fly-trap-v5.html
Edited October 24, 2013
“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v4”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v4.html
Edited October 11, 2013
“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v3.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v2.html
December 20, 2012
“Like the Venus Fly Trap”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap.html
edited February 11, 2014
“hiding in the ice – v9”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/hiding-in-ice-v9.html
edited January 4, 2014
“hiding in the ice – v8”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/hiding-in-ice-v8.html
(editing version 5)
Edited September 28, 2013
“hiding in the ice – v7”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v7.html
(editing version 3)
Edited September 28, 2013
“hiding in the ice – v6”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v6.html
(editing version 2)
Edited September 25, 2013
“hiding in the ice – v5”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v5.html
Edited August 2, 2013
“hiding in the ice – v4”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/hiding-in-ice-v4.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“hiding in the ice – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v3.html
Edited December 21, 2012
“hiding in the ice – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v2.html
December 21, 2012
“hiding in the ice”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“Animated / Evil – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil-v2.html
December 20, 2012
“Animated / Evil”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“A latent danger – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v3.html
December 20, 2012
“A latent danger – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v2.html
“A latent danger”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“Smiling in the freezing – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/smiling-in-freezing-v2.html
December 20, 2012
“Smiling in the freezing”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/the-water-changing-life-giving-elixir.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“A frozen trap – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap-v2.html
December 20, 2012
“A frozen trap”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“was the road innocent – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent-v2.html
December 21, 2012
“was the road innocent”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“Did the ice know – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know-v2.html
December 20, 2012
“Did the ice know”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know.html
series of new poems
also about my father’s death,
after reviewing poem by Jacob Montgomery,
“Icy Lanes”,
(see more of his poems at:
http://soggytractor.wordpress.com )
and exchanging emails with him about that poem
and my father’s death
2/14/1991
&
Edited August 22, 2013
“eyes not shut – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut-v2.html
August 22, 2013
“eyes not shut”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut.html
a poem in conjured after reading poem
“TATTOOS AND ATTITUDE”
https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2/posts/503630106394453
by Chip Bergeron
https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2
http://www.authorsden.com/chipbergeron
&
Edited September 20, 2012
new poem, “Did you brace for impact”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/did-you-brace-for-impact.html
&
Edited September 20, 2012
“Mile Marker 19 – v5”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v5.html
&
Edited September 12, 2012
“Mile Marker 19 – v4”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v2.html
editing version 2 below
&
Edited September 12, 2012
“Mile Marker 19 – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v3.html
editing the original again
inspired by reading it at Poets’ Corner
monthly poetry reading,
at the Suncook Senior Center
September 10, 2012
&
edited June 6, 2012 (adding an additional last stanza)
“Mile Marker 19 – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/06/mile-marker-19-v2.html
&
October 2, 2011
Did You Hear Her Cry
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/10/did-you-hear-her-cry.html
after rereading earlier poem,
“Mile Marker 19”
&
Edited April 23, 2013
“No Life in Your Eyes – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/04/no-life-in-your-eyes-v2.html
February 11, 2011
“No Life in Your Eyes”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/02/no-life-in-your-eyes.html
remembering the 20th anniversary
of my father’s death, February 14, 1991
written at the House of Purpose coffeehouse
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/Purpose/298439882520
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/The-House-Of-Purpose/357853918881
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/event.php?eid=132438993489979
Hillsboro, NH
February 11, 2011
&
new poem February 11, 2014
Where you are scattered
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/where-you-are-scattered.html
posted March 22, 2004
written 2/26/2001
Adam Asked
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/adam-asked.html
posted March 18, 2004
written March 6, 2001
Meticulous
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/meticulous.html
posted March 17, 2004
written 3/2/2001 and 3/5/2001
The Submariner
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/submariner.html
posted February 18, 2004
edited April 25, 2015
Home Again – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/home-again-v2.html
edited April 23, 2015
Your final resting place – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/your-final-resting-place-v2.html
edited April 25, 2015
Ashes – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/ashes-v2.html
March 2, 2001
“Ashes”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/ashes.html
posted February 18, 2004
March 2, 2001
“Home Again”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/home-again.html
&
posted March 10, 2004
written April 3, 2001 8:47am
Demons
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/demons.html
&
posted February 8, 2004
original version written 5/20/2000
“Mile Marker 19”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/mile-marker-19_08.html
posted to my blog on February 8, 2004,
as the 15th poem put on the site -
about my father’s fatal car accident
near Mile Marker 19
on the Spaulding Turnpike
Rochester, NH
February 14, 1991 at 7:02pm
Valentine’s Day
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