In a sense like he was

watching the submariners

silently in the airport lobby

seeing them together, separate,

within their own thoughts

not needing to have words spoken

not needing to speak

some highly social but

others in a sense like he was

comfortable separate

within his own thoughts

not need to have words spoken

not needing to speak

================

September 14, 2018

in a sense like he was

the crew of the USS Florida – in the Bangor Airport September 12, 2018

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/USS_Florida_(SSGN-728)

USS Guavina – one of the vessels my dad served on 1950-1952

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/USS_Guavina

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edited December 29, 2015

Demons – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2_29.html

edited December 29, 2015

Did You Hear Her Cry – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2_29.html

edited December 29, 2015

The Crash – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-crash-v2.html

edited December 18, 2015

The Submariner – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-submariner-v2.html

&

edited December 17, 2015

Meticulous – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/meticulous-v2.html

&

edited December 18, 2015

Adam Asked – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/adam-asked-v2.html

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edited October 22, 2015

Did you brace for impact – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/did-you-brace-for-impact-v2.html

edicted October 22, 2015

Mile Marker 19 – v8

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/mile-marker-19-v8.html

(editing original)

edited October 5, 2015

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v9

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v9.html

(editing version 5)

&

edited October 3, 2015

Why on this day – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3.html

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3_5.html

(editing original)

edited October 19, 2014

Why on this day – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/10/why-on-this-day-v2.html

July 1, 2014

Why on this day

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/07/why-on-this-day.html

“My Prayers Weekend!”

“Next Day Stretch”

draft a note to God

about a day when you struggled

with a big question

for June 29, 2014

read June 30, 2014

&

edited June 27, 2014

A vivid memory – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory-v2.html

June 27, 2014

A vivid memory

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory.html

Matthew 28:20 (NRSV)

Romans 8:31-39

Upper Room Daily Devotional

“In Dark Times”

http://devotional.upperroom.org/devotionals/2014-06-26 

by Don Greeley

about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml

for June 26, 2014

read June 27, 2014

Upper Room Daily Devotional

for March and April 2014

http://devotional.upperroom.org/issues/may-jun%202014

&

edited August 15, 2015

Here it comes – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/here-it-comes-v3.html

(editing version 2)

edited January 12, 2014

Here it comes – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes-v2.html

January 12, 2014

Here it comes

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes.html

January 12, 2014

I am not ready

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/i-am-not-ready.html

(conversation by Dean McKenney about his

bad car accident 40 years ago)

January 12, 2014

an accounting to God

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/an-accounting-to-god.html

January 12, 2014

Honor their walk

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/honor-their-walk.html

Romans 14:10-12

Romans 14:1-12

Romans 14

Men’s Bible Study

led by Steve Curtis

Stetson Memorial United Methodist Church

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stetson-Memorial-United-Methodist-Church/174161846023512

Patten, ME

January 12, 2014

&

edited August 4, 2015

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v8

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/like-venus-fly-trap-v8.html

(editing version 5)

edited May 9, 2015

Ten Years – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/ten-years-v2.html

April 23, 2004

Ten Years

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/04/ten-years.html

see also

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edited January 11, 2014

Mile Marker 19 – v7

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/mile-marker-19-v7.html

(editing version 6)

Edited November 9, 2013

Mile Marker 19 – v6

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/mile-marker-19-v6.html

(editing version 3)

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edited March 21, 2015

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v7

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/03/like-venus-fly-trap-v7.html

(editing version 5)

edited December 3, 2014

Like the Venus Fly Trap – v6

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v6.html

(editing version 3)

Edited November 9, 2013

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v5”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/like-venus-fly-trap-v5.html

Edited October 24, 2013

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v4”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v4.html

Edited October 11, 2013

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v3.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Like the Venus Fly Trap”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap.html

edited February 11, 2014

“hiding in the ice – v9”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/hiding-in-ice-v9.html

edited January 4, 2014

“hiding in the ice – v8”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/hiding-in-ice-v8.html

(editing version 5)

Edited September 28, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v7”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v7.html

 (editing version 3)

Edited September 28, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v6”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v6.html

(editing version 2)

Edited September 25, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v5”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v5.html

Edited August 2, 2013

“hiding in the ice – v4”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/hiding-in-ice-v4.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“hiding in the ice – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v3.html

Edited December 21, 2012

“hiding in the ice – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v2.html

December 21, 2012

“hiding in the ice”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Animated / Evil – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Animated / Evil”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“A latent danger – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v3.html

December 20, 2012

“A latent danger – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v2.html

“A latent danger”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Smiling in the freezing – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/smiling-in-freezing-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Smiling in the freezing”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/the-water-changing-life-giving-elixir.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“A frozen trap – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“A frozen trap”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“was the road innocent – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent-v2.html

December 21, 2012

“was the road innocent”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent.html

Edited December 26, 2012

“Did the ice know – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know-v2.html

December 20, 2012

“Did the ice know”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know.html

series of new poems

also about my father’s death,

after reviewing poem by Jacob Montgomery,

“Icy Lanes”,

(see more of his poems at:

http://soggytractor.wordpress.com )

and exchanging emails with him about that poem

and my father’s death

2/14/1991

&

Edited August 22, 2013

“eyes not shut – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut-v2.html

August 22, 2013

“eyes not shut”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut.html

a poem in conjured after reading poem

“TATTOOS AND ATTITUDE”

https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2/posts/503630106394453

by Chip Bergeron

https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2

http://www.authorsden.com/chipbergeron

&

Edited September 20, 2012

new poem, “Did you brace for impact”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/did-you-brace-for-impact.html

&

Edited September 20, 2012

“Mile Marker 19 – v5”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v5.html

&

Edited September 12, 2012

“Mile Marker 19 – v4”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v2.html

editing version 2 below

&

Edited September 12, 2012

“Mile Marker 19 – v3”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v3.html

editing the original again

inspired by reading it at Poets’ Corner

monthly poetry reading,

at the Suncook Senior Center

September 10, 2012

&

edited June 6, 2012 (adding an additional last stanza)

“Mile Marker 19 – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/06/mile-marker-19-v2.html

&

October 2, 2011

Did You Hear Her Cry

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/10/did-you-hear-her-cry.html

after rereading earlier poem,

“Mile Marker 19”

&

Edited April 23, 2013

“No Life in Your Eyes – v2”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/04/no-life-in-your-eyes-v2.html

February 11, 2011

“No Life in Your Eyes”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/02/no-life-in-your-eyes.html

remembering the 20^th anniversary

of my father’s death, February 14, 1991

written at the House of Purpose coffeehouse

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/Purpose/298439882520

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/The-House-Of-Purpose/357853918881

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/event.php?eid=132438993489979

Hillsboro, NH

February 11, 2011

&

new poem February 11, 2014

Where you are scattered

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/where-you-are-scattered.html

posted March 22, 2004

written 2/26/2001

Adam Asked

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/adam-asked.html

posted March 18, 2004

written March 6, 2001

Meticulous

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/meticulous.html

posted March 17, 2004

written 3/2/2001 and 3/5/2001

The Submariner

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/submariner.html

posted February 18, 2004

March 2, 2001

“Ashes”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/ashes.html

posted February 18, 2004

March 2, 2001

“Home Again”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/home-again.html

&

posted March 10, 2004

written April 3, 2001 8:47am

Demons

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/demons.html

&

posted February 14, 2004

(the 13^th anniversary of my father’s fatal accident)

written June 18, 2001 10:54pm

The Crash

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/crash.html

about my father's death

February 14, 1991

and my car accident

the day I applied to law school

&

posted February 8, 2004

original version written 5/20/2000

“Mile Marker 19”

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/mile-marker-19_08.html

posted to my blog on February 8, 2004,

as the 15^th poem put on the site -

about my father’s fatal car accident

near Mile Marker 19

on the Spaulding Turnpike

Rochester, NH

February 14, 1991 at 7:02pm

Valentine’s Day

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, and 2018. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 47,670 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

black ice, Family, God, faith, hands, ice, father, life, mile marker 19, poetry, Poetry Where You Live, voice, water, white, death, accident, demons, memory, crash, control,

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#family #memories #Poetry #love #father #son #mother #wife #loss #faith #God #winter #husband #control #engineer #God #home #blackice #death #NH #poetry #Father #accident #crash #private #silent #introspective #submariner

Family Secrets – Revised – v5

Little and big secrets

silence, … not sharing

words, stories not spoken,

from shame, for protection;

Blank spots, missing pieces

in the telling, retelling

of our family’s history.

Carved off areas, blank spaces,

sometimes casually shared later

as if we knew, … forgetting the secrets,

the silence, the missing words

in real-time, in our living;

Names crossed from address books

pain pushed down, hidden.

Missing memories, omissions,

scraps of childhood, painful,

undiscussed, unspoken

in the fog of history;

Moments casually blurted out

when there was no warning,

forgetting, … the secrets spoken.

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edited September 13, 2018

Family Secrets – Revised – v5

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2018/09/family-secrets-revised-v5.html

https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1040356391414726656

edited November 12, 2017

Family Secrets – Revised – v4

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/family-secrets-revised-v4.html

edited November 12, 2017

behind a mask – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/behind-mask-v2.html

November 11, 2017

behind a mask

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/behind-mask.html

the allegations in the news about

Alabama Senate candidate Roy Moore

and a flood of memories and feelings

&

edited November 12, 2017

the smell of the smoke – 2 – v4

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/the-smell-of-smoke-2-v4.html

edited June 6, 2015

the smell of the smoke – 2 – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.in/2015/06/the-smell-of-smoke-2-v3.html

(merging edits to original and version 2)

edited May 29, 2015

the scorch of fire – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/the-scorch-of-fire-v2.html

edited May 23, 2015

the scorch of the fire

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/the-scorch-of-fire.html

edited May 22, 2015

the smell of the smoke – 2 – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/the-smell-of-smoke-2-v2.html

May 21, 2015

the smell of the smoke - 2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/the-smell-of-smoke.html

May 19, 2015 and May 20, 2015

Focus on the Family

https://twitter.com/FocusFamily

https://www.facebook.com/focusonthefamily

http://www.focusonthefamily.com

radio broadcasts

Helping Your Husband Overcome Childhood Sexual Abuse (Part 1 of 2)

http://www.focusonthefamily.com/media/daily-broadcast/helping-your-husband-overcome-childhood-sexual-abuse-pt1

see transcript:

http://www.focusonthefamily.com/media/daily-broadcast/helping-your-husband-overcome-childhood-sexual-abuse-pt1#transcript

Helping Your Husband Overcome Childhood Sexual Abuse (Part 2 of 2)

http://www.focusonthefamily.com/media/daily-broadcast/helping-your-husband-overcome-childhood-sexual-abuse-pt2

With Guests Cecil Murphey and Gary Roe

https://www.facebook.com/gary.roe.79

https://twitter.com/GaryRoeAuthor

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Cecil-Murphey/110181285701463

The piece that caught my attention was the statements about God placing hands on the side of the boy’s heart while being sexually abused.

Unlike the story of the fiery furnace in Daniel 3:1-30, where Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego had no smell of smoke on them, victims of sexual abuse do have the smell of the smoke of that evil upon them, even as God was with them in the fire.

&

edited November 12, 2017

an unwanted touch – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/an-unwanted-touch-v2.html

August 20, 2014

an unwanted touch

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/08/an-unwanted-touch.html

Devozine for August 18, 2014 to August 24, 2014

www.devozine.org

“+sexual struggles”

&

Habakkuk 3:1 (GNT)

devotion: “Sexual Abuse”

national abuse hotline

1-800-656-4673

https://ohl.rainn.org/online/

devotion by Kerri Voegeli

https://www.facebook.com/kerri.voegeli

for August 19, 2014

read August 19, 2014

&

edited November 12, 2017

I can understand their anger – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/i-can-understand-their-anger-v2.html

November 18, 2011

I can understand their anger

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/i-can-understand-their-anger.html

&

edited November 12, 2017

A box around these memories – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/a-box-around-these-memories-v2.html

November 18, 2011

A box around these memories

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/box-around-these-memories.html

&

edited November 12, 2017

A Walled-off Place – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/a-walled-off-place-v2.html

November 18, 2011

A Walled-off Place

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/walled-off-place.html

&

edited November 12, 2017

Under the Veil of Silence – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/under-veil-of-silence-v3.html

November 18, 2011

Under the Veil of Silence – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/under-veil-of-silence-v2.html

November 18, 2011

Under the Veil of Silence

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/under-veil-of-silence.html

&

edited November 12, 2017

Open the Sealed Records – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/open-sealed-records-v2.html

November 18, 2011

Open the Sealed Records

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/open-sealed-records.html

&

edited November 12, 2017

On that Altar of Football – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/on-that-altar-of-football-v2.html

November 18, 2011

On that Altar of Football

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/on-that-altar-of-football.html

&

November 12, 2017

When we worship false God – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/when-we-worship-false-gods-v2.html

November 18, 2011

We worship false Gods

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/when-we-worship-false-gods.html

&

edited November 12, 2017

At the trough of their power – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/at-trough-of-their-power-v2.html

November 18, 2011

At the trough of their power

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/at-trough-of-their-power.html

Sandusky sexual abuse scandal

and re-victimizing the children

in hearing his defense and seeing him

on the sidelines of the Penn State football games

over and over again

and the same for all adult victims of sexual abuse

hearing these words and these images

and failure of Penn State to release all documents

regarding the scandal

&

edited November 12, 2017

For me, a stranger – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/for-me-stranger-v2.html

November 18, 2011

For me, a stranger

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/11/you-me-stranger.html

&

edited November 12, 2017

Family Secrets – Revised – v4

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2017/11/family-secrets-revised-v4.html

edited January 10, 2016

Family Secrets – Revised – v3

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/family-secrets-v3.html

(merging edits to original and version 2)

edited September 2, 2015

Family Secrets – Revised – v2

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/09/family-secrets-revised-v2.html

6/17/2004

Family Secrets - Revised

http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/07/family-secrets.html

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, and 2018. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 47,670 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Spirit, Christ, faith, love, child abuse, assault, sex, power, touch, memory, secret, shame, sexual abuse, Roy Moore, Sandusky, law, children, justice, abuse,

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