my body reacted

I was scared when you touched me,

unwanted, without permission,
I was ashamed, shattered,
broken, when my body reacted,
a lightning bolt, a shiver,
blood rising within me,
a sensation unwanted,
My innocence lost, forever,
in that littered field that day…
 
My body reacted, without me,
a fire within me, unwelcome,
an unwanted touch, dirty,
changing the course of my life
a secret unspoken, shameful,
never reconciled fully,
a lie of guilt, of wanting,
I carried within me, too long,
for five awful decades…
 
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July 26, 2025
my body reacted
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/my-body-reacted-i-was-scared-when-you.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”
&
3/31/01, in the morning,
Assault (written but never posted)
about the sexual assault against me in the Summer of 1973 in Westfield, MA
August 22, 2024
Family Secrets – Revised – v6
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2024/08/family-secrets-revised-v6.html
July 1, 2004
Family Secrets
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/07/family-secrets.html
July 21, 2025
sin opened a door
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/sin-opened-door.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”, page 134
July 21, 2025
It was always Satan
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/it-was-always-satan.html
Based on #Psalm 22:1
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”, page 134
July 21, 2025
one pivotal moment
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/one-pivotal-moment.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”, page 134, Question 4.
July 21, 2025
lost, damaged, stolen
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/lost-damaged-stolen.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”, page 134, Question 4.
July 21, 2025
Hear my cry, oh Father
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/hear-my-cry-oh-father.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”, page 132.
July 21, 2025
in despair, taking
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/in-despair-taking.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”, page 134.
July 21, 2025
Written July 7, 2025
only God can forgive us
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/only-god-can-forgive-us.html
Based on #Luke5:21
Based on #Psalm51:1-6
re:generation, Step 5, Confess, Week 1, Day 4, “Confess Sins to God”
 
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