I could not grieve

sitting, my back erect,
gravity of that moment,
sitting apart with them,
the other firstborns…
 
I felt honor, responsibility,
Weight of that moment,
But I could not process
Emotions washing o’er me…
 
I could not grieve,
my feelings tamped down,
sitting apart with them,
the other firstborns…
 
listening to her pastor’s words,
her Scottish brogue lilting,
love pouring out for her
but my tears dry within me…
 
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July 28, 2025
I could not grieve
 
death of my paternal grandmother, Jessie Watson Foss, May 1, 1973
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement
re:generation, Step 5, Confess, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”
July 28, 2025
when I lost her
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/when-i-lost-her.html
July 28, 2025
trying to leave the darkness
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/trying-to-leave-darkness.html
July 28, 2025
Heal the damage of my past
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/heal-damage-of-my-past.html
Edited July 28, 2025
I listened to the lie of Satan
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/i-listened-to-lie-of-satan.html
3/31/01, in the morning,
Assault (written but never posted)
about the sexual assault against me in the Summer of 1973 in Westfield, MA
 
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