when I lost her

my soul cried out in pain
but I didn’t know how to process
the deep ache within me,
on that day we shared…
 
May Day baskets different,
a solemn reminder offered,
a tradition for sixty years
until you too were taken from me…
 
I became angry with God
my joy turned to sorrow,
what I lost her to the darkness,
hurled into the abyss…
 
My first love, my joy,
turned to pain within me,
how I hated You, oh God,
for taking Jessie from me…
 
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July 28, 2025
when I lost her

death of my paternal grandmother, Jessie Watson Foss, May 1, 1973
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement
re:generation, Step 5, Confess, Appendix C, “Abuse Supplement”
July 28, 2025
trying to leave the darkness
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/trying-to-leave-darkness.html
July 28, 2025
Heal the damage of my past
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/heal-damage-of-my-past.html
Edited July 28, 2025
I listened to the lie of Satan
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/07/i-listened-to-lie-of-satan.html
3/31/01, in the morning,
Assault (written but never posted)
about the sexual assault against me in the Summer of 1973 in Westfield, MA
 
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