Showing posts with label studentloans. Show all posts
Showing posts with label studentloans. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

my demons laughing – v4

My demons must be laughing
pointing at me, mocking,
because I am carrying chains,
I am mired in my thoughts
I am stuck in the mud
when Christ set me free.

I worry, I doubt, I think
I have no hope, no salvation
for I am not following my path
the Spirit’s way to life;
I am wandering on this earth;
I am struggling, I am lost.

My demons must be laughing
pointing at me, mocking
waiting for me to stumble
for me to fall, to fail
for me to give in, give up
for me to follow the flesh.

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edited August 21, 2019
my demons laughing – v4

edited August 8, 2019
my demons laughing – v3
edited January 27, 2019
my demons laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
words cutting – v2
January 26, 2019
words cutting
January 26, 2019
anticipating the jabs
January 26, 2019
silent screams
January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 51,550 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


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Wednesday, August 14, 2019

in darkness, acting – v3

in darkness, acting
listening to the demons
so far down, deep,
so far down, hidden
clutching for straws
willing to lie, to cheat
to take shortcuts
to blame others
to muddy the waters
my own culpability
their own demons

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edited August 14, 2019
in darkness, acting – v3

merging edits to original and version 2
edited July 29, 2019
in darkness, acting – v2
January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 51,420 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

Thursday, August 08, 2019

my demons laughing – v3

My demons laughing
pointing at me, mocking,
because I am carrying chains,
I am stuck in the mud.

I have no hope, no salvation
for I am not following my path
the Spirit’s way to life;
I am wandering on this earth.

My demons laughing
pointing at me, mocking
waiting for me to stumble
for me to fall, to fail.

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edited August 8, 2019
my demons laughing – v3

edited January 27, 2019
my demons laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
words cutting – v2
January 26, 2019
words cutting
January 26, 2019
anticipating the jabs
January 26, 2019
silent screams
January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 51,310 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

Monday, July 29, 2019

in darkness, acting – v2

in darkness, acting
listening to the demons
so far down, deep,
clutching for straws
willing to lie, to cheat
to take shortcuts
to blame others
to muddy the waters

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edited July 29, 2019
in darkness, acting – v2

January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 51,100 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

Sunday, January 27, 2019

my demons laughing – v2

my demons laughing
pointing at me, mocking
because I am carrying chains
I am stuck in the mud;
I have no hope, no salvation
for I am not following my path
the Spirit’s way to life;
my demons laughing
pointing at me, mocking
waiting for me to stumble
for me to fall

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edited January 27, 2019
my demons laughing – v2

edited January 26, 2019
words cutting – v2
January 26, 2019
words cutting
January 26, 2019
anticipating the jabs
January 26, 2019
silent screams
January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,620 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

words cutting – v2

words cutting, slicing
peeling back flesh;
fileted, deboned
nothing much left

words cutting, slicing
taking the rest;
certainty, trust
story, death

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January 26, 2019
words cutting
January 26, 2019
anticipating the jabs
January 26, 2019
silent screams
January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,620 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

words cutting

words cutting, slicing
peeling back flesh
fileted, deboned
nothing much left

words cutting, slicing
taking the rest
his certainty, his trust
his story, his death

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January 26, 2019
words cutting

January 26, 2019
anticipating the jabs
January 26, 2019
silent screams
January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,620 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,

#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

anticipating the jabs

orchestrated chaos
each taking their part
anticipating the jabs
the slings and arrows
descent into darkness
brooding, fever
bitter rage

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January 26, 2019
anticipating the jabs

January 26, 2019
silent screams
January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,620 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

Saturday, January 26, 2019

silent screams

silent screams
rage against the noise
darkness, slipping
falling in upon himself
crushed by the weight
the tug of the demons
lost, wandering
with the darkness

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January 26, 2019
silent screams

January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,620 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,

#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

in darkness, acting

in darkness, acting
listening to the demons
so far down
clutching for straws
willing to lie
to take shortcuts
to blame others
to muddy the waters

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January 26, 2019
in darkness, acting
January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat
January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 51,100 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

willing to lie, to cheat

willing to lie, to cheat
to fudge the edges
not sure enough
not trusting the path before him

willing to lie, to cheat
to gain the advantage
not staying true
to the path before him

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January 26, 2019
willing to lie, to cheat

January 26, 2019
wanting to win
January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,620 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

wanting to win

wanting to win
to prevail, to triumph
to overcome their slings
his own arrows of doubt
prepared to compromise
to cut corners
willing to sacrifice too much
to add another check
in the win column

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January 26, 2019
wanting to win

January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,620 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

a labyrinth of lies


a labyrinth of lies
of self-deception
covering the sins
of life, imperfection

deluding ourselves
within the storms
swirling chaos, the winds
changing, moving
out on the road

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January 26, 2019
a labyrinth of lies

edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,610 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,

#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting

my demons are laughing – v2

my demons are laughing
rolling around on the floor
pointing, mocking
for I frozen, unfocused;
I am adrift, downtrodden
I am stuck in the mud
unable to move

no hope, no salvation
not following my path
the way to life;
my demons are laughing
pointing, mocking
waiting for me to stumble
waiting for me to fall

--------------------
edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing – v2

edited January 26, 2019
my demons are laughing
January 26, 2019
my demons laughing
January 26, 2019
not trusting not going

All of my poems, photographs, and videos are copyrighted by Raymond A. Foss, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, and 2019. All rights are reserved. Contact me at Ray Foss (raymondafoss@gmail.com) for usage. See all 48,610 of my poems at www.raymondafoss.blogspot.com Poetry Where You Live.

God, Christ, Spirit, faith, love, grace, trust, prayer, hope, dreams, Poetry Where You Live, poetry, debt, studentloans, fear, chains, lies, honor, word, demons,


#God #Christ #Spirit #faith #love #grace #trust #prayer #hope #dreams #poetry #debt #bills #studentloans #fear #chains #lies #honor #word #sizzle #steak #lawschool #risk #failure #communication #silence #fighting