harms committed against me, sin,
directly or indirectly changing my path
my course, every choice of my life
outside my control or giving up control,
whatever might be the case,
they took away my power,
my autonomy, my agency,
I have fought to take it back…
in my struggles, in my pain,
in my deep sense of loss, anguish,
even when I feared to follow
Your calling for my life
I have chosen poorly,
I have hurt those I love,
I have acted inappropriately
selfishly, in the flesh, of the body,
to regain an allusion of control…
when they took away my power
my autonomy, my sense of self,
I was left out of control, buffeted,
limited by my fears, out of my depth,
unmoored from You, Lord,
a feather in the wind, blown,
wanting so much more
wanting to truly live…
directly or indirectly changing my path
my course, every choice of my life
outside my control or giving up control,
whatever might be the case,
they took away my power,
my autonomy, my agency,
I have fought to take it back…
in my deep sense of loss, anguish,
even when I feared to follow
Your calling for my life
I have chosen poorly,
I have hurt those I love,
I have acted inappropriately
selfishly, in the flesh, of the body,
to regain an allusion of control…
my autonomy, my sense of self,
I was left out of control, buffeted,
limited by my fears, out of my depth,
unmoored from You, Lord,
a feather in the wind, blown,
wanting so much more
wanting to truly live…
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Edited June 18, 2025
They took away my power, my agency – v2
Based on #Matthew22:37-40
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
June 16, 2025
I have chosen the easy path
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/i-have-chosen-easy-path.html
Based on #Isaiah49:15-16
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
June 16, 2025
I have been on the wrong path
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/i-have-been-on-wrong-path.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
June 16, 2025
God knows my pain
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/god-knows-my-pain.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
June 16, 2025
Christ died to save me
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/christ-died-to-save-me.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
June 16, 2025
Christ took God’s Wrath
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/christ-took-gods-wrath.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
June 16, 2025
God has always loved me
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/god-has-always-loved-me.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
Edited June 13, 2025
Loving this job that I hate – v2
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/loving-this-job-that-i-hate.html
Conversation with re:generation mentor and others
about being underemployed working retail
before Men’s Bible Study June 12, 2025
June 13, 2025
Loving this job that I hate
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/loving-this-job-that-i-hate_13.html
June 10, 2025
Still
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/still.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
June 10, 2025
God gave Jesus for me
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/god-gave-jesus-for-me.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day
June 10, 2025
God chose to create me
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/06/god-chose-to-create-me.html
re:generation, Step 4, Inventory, Week 6, Day 1
