on my darkest
day, driving home,
when I hit my rock bottom,
in the midst of my anguish and torment
my pain raw, feeling alone, empty,
caught in my sin, my shame
years of secrets…
In silence, You
approached me,
You sat down beside me
You were there with me
You were present with me,
almost like sitting Shiva,
listening when I was ready…
in those awful
moments,
many years dying, in truth,
a life of denying my sin,
wanting it to be special,
secret lies exposed,
hitting my rock bottom…
Feeling so alone,
so betrayed,
empty in that moment, shaking,
sobbing uncontrollably,
not knowing what to do…
You cared, You listened,
You were present with me…
God made me turn
onto the street,
into the church’s parking lot,
opening Your door that day,
shaking off my darkness,
making a way into the light,
bringing me back to You…
That was such a
gift, holy,
feeling Your arm around me,
like the prodigal I had come home…
A moment of healing, beginning,
My life was changed forever
when You were present with me…
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Edited August 12, 2025
on my darkest day – v3
Discussion
topic: “Secrets”
Based on #Psalm90:8
Based on #1John1:9
Based on #Psalm51
Based on #James1:8
Based on #John3:19-21
Based on #Luke15:11-32
Samson Society men’s group meeting
North Hills Church
Summer 2003
Wesley United Methodist Church
sitting in the back pew crying
Edited August 7, 2025
My sin drives the nails
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/my-sin-drives-nails.html
re:generation, Step 7, Follow, Week 2, small group discussion
Edited August 7, 2025
the sting of a repeated lie – v2
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/the-sting-of-repeated-lie-v2.html
Sharing part of my story with a brother in Christ…
Edited August 5, 2025
I spoke the darkness – v2
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/i-spoke-darkness-v2.html
August 3, 2025
I confess my sin
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/i-confess-my-sin.html
re:generation, Step 7, Follow, Week 1, Small Group meeting
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#poetry #God #confess
#repent #forgive #secrets
when I hit my rock bottom,
in the midst of my anguish and torment
my pain raw, feeling alone, empty,
caught in my sin, my shame
years of secrets…
You sat down beside me
You were there with me
You were present with me,
almost like sitting Shiva,
listening when I was ready…
many years dying, in truth,
a life of denying my sin,
wanting it to be special,
secret lies exposed,
hitting my rock bottom…
empty in that moment, shaking,
sobbing uncontrollably,
not knowing what to do…
You cared, You listened,
You were present with me…
into the church’s parking lot,
opening Your door that day,
shaking off my darkness,
making a way into the light,
bringing me back to You…
feeling Your arm around me,
like the prodigal I had come home…
A moment of healing, beginning,
My life was changed forever
when You were present with me…
Edited August 12, 2025
on my darkest day – v3
Based on #Psalm90:8
Based on #1John1:9
Based on #Psalm51
Based on #James1:8
Based on #John3:19-21
Based on #Luke15:11-32
Samson Society men’s group meeting
North Hills Church
Summer 2003
Wesley United Methodist Church
sitting in the back pew crying
Edited August 7, 2025
My sin drives the nails
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/my-sin-drives-nails.html
re:generation, Step 7, Follow, Week 2, small group discussion
Edited August 7, 2025
the sting of a repeated lie – v2
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/the-sting-of-repeated-lie-v2.html
Sharing part of my story with a brother in Christ…
Edited August 5, 2025
I spoke the darkness – v2
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/i-spoke-darkness-v2.html
August 3, 2025
I confess my sin
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2025/08/i-confess-my-sin.html
re:generation, Step 7, Follow, Week 1, Small Group meeting
Poetry, God, Christ, Spirit, grace, regeneration, confess, repent, forgive, secrets, Psalm 90,
