I touched the brains of my father
on the back seat where he landed;
I saw him naked, zipped in a red carpetbag,
laid out like President John F. Kennedy.
I lifted his blood-drenched jacket,
looking for his wedding band in his heel-shaped change purse;
I smelled the mix of chemicals in his snow-covered car,
waiting, parked in their impound lot.
I faced his mortality, his death,
on the night of his black-ice fatal crash;
I helped Mom spread his ashes,
sharing them with the mountain that he loved.
--------------------
Edited July 7, 2022
I touched the brains of my father – v2
Edited July 5, 2022
I touched the brains of my father
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2022/07/i-touched-brains-of-my-father.html
July 4, 2022
I have touched the brains of my father
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2022/07/i-have-touched-brains-of-my-father.html
&
February 14, 2021
thirty years ago tonight
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/thirty-years-ago-tonight.html
February 14, 2021
When love became loss
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/when-love-became-loss.html
February 14, 2021
I miss you Dad
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/i-miss-you-dad.html
February 13, 2021
Thirty years ago
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/thirty-years-ago.html
February 13, 2021
processing history
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2021/02/processing-history.html
30th anniversary of black ice car accident death
of my father, Arthur Leon Foss, Jr.,
Rochester, NH
near Mile Marker 19
Spaulding Turnpike
before it was separated lanes
&
edited
December 28, 2019
Did
You Hear Her Cry, Her Moan – v2
https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210959183585173506
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2019/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-her-moan-v2.html
stanza
1 – https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210957493498724355
stanza
2 – https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210957591855144960
edited/new
name December 28, 2019
Did
You Hear Her Cry, Her Moan
https://twitter.com/raymondafoss/status/1210953837240029185
https://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2019/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-her-moan.html
edited
January 22, 2016
Did
You Hear Her Cry – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3_22.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/did-you-hear-her-cry-v3_21.html
(merging
original and version 2)
edited
January 21, 2016
Crushed
– v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2_21.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/crushed-v2_56.html
posted
March 6, 2004
written
1/9/04 – 14:35-14:40
Crushed
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/crushed.html
–
about cleaning out my father’s car the day after his fatal accident. The
weather was very cold and the passenger door was where the gearshift would be.
The license plate of the car that ran into his was there too. The glasses he
wore were in the right rearmost spot and his watch was in the left rearmost
part of the car. The driver seat was broken backward from the force of the
accident and his blood was on the backseat where he landed.
&
edited
January 11, 2016
Black
Ice – v4
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4_11.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2016/01/black-ice-v4_83.html
(editing
version 3)
edited
September 1, 2012
Black
Ice – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/black-ice-v3.html
Edited
August 31, 2012
“Black
Ice – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/08/black-ice-v2.html
December
12, 2007
“Black
Ice”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2007/12/black-ice.html
------
edited
December 29, 2015
Demons
– v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/demons-v2_29.html
edited
December 29, 2015
Did
You Hear Her Cry – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/did-you-hear-her-cry-v2_29.html
edited
December 29, 2015
The
Crash – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-crash-v2.html
posted
February 14, 2004
(the
13th anniversary of my father’s fatal accident)
written
June 18, 2001 10:54pm
The
Crash
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/crash.html
about my father's death
February 14, 1991
and
my car accident
the
day I applied to law school
edited
December 18, 2015
The
Submariner – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-submariner-v2.html
&
edited
December 17, 2015
Meticulous
– v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/meticulous-v2.html
&
edited
December 18, 2015
Adam
Asked – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/12/adam-asked-v2.html
==========
edited
October 22, 2015
Did
you brace for impact – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/did-you-brace-for-impact-v2.html
edicted
October 22, 2015
Mile
Marker 19 – v8
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/mile-marker-19-v8.html
(editing
original)
edited
October 5, 2015
Like
the Venus Fly Trap – v9
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v9.html
(editing
version 5)
&
edited
October 3, 2015
Why
on this day – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3.html
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/10/why-on-this-day-v3_5.html
(editing
original)
edited
October 19, 2014
Why
on this day – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/10/why-on-this-day-v2.html
July
1, 2014
Why
on this day
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/07/why-on-this-day.html
“My
Prayers Weekend!”
“Next
Day Stretch”
draft
a note to God
about
a day when you struggled
with
a big question
for
June 29, 2014
read
June 30, 2014
&
edited
June 27, 2014
A
vivid memory – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory-v2.html
June
27, 2014
A
vivid memory
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/06/a-vivid-memory.html
Matthew
28:20 (NRSV)
Romans
8:31-39
Upper
Room Daily Devotional
“In
Dark Times”
http://devotional.upperroom.org/devotionals/2014-06-26
by
Don Greeley
about
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml
for
June 26, 2014
read
June 27, 2014
Upper
Room Daily Devotional
for
March and April 2014
http://devotional.upperroom.org/issues/may-jun%202014
&
edited
August 15, 2015
Here
it comes – v3
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/here-it-comes-v3.html
(editing
version 2)
edited
January 12, 2014
Here
it comes – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes-v2.html
January
12, 2014
Here
it comes
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/here-it-comes.html
January
12, 2014
I
am not ready
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/i-am-not-ready.html
(conversation
by Dean McKenney about his
bad
car accident 40 years ago)
January
12, 2014
an
accounting to God
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/an-accounting-to-god.html
January
12, 2014
Honor
their walk
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/honor-their-walk.html
Romans
14:10-12
Romans
14:1-12
Romans
14
Men’s
Bible Study
led
by Steve Curtis
Stetson
Memorial United Methodist Church
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Stetson-Memorial-United-Methodist-Church/174161846023512
Patten,
ME
January
12, 2014
&
edited
August 4, 2015
Like
the Venus Fly Trap – v8
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/08/like-venus-fly-trap-v8.html
(editing
version 5)
edited May 9, 2015
Ten Years – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/05/ten-years-v2.html
April 23, 2004
Ten Years
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/04/ten-years.html
see also
-------
edited January 11, 2014
Mile Marker 19 – v7
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/mile-marker-19-v7.html
(editing version 6)
Edited November 9, 2013
Mile Marker 19 – v6
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/mile-marker-19-v6.html
(editing version 3)
-------
edited
March 21, 2015
Like
the Venus Fly Trap – v7
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/03/like-venus-fly-trap-v7.html
(editing
version 5)
edited
December 3, 2014
Like
the Venus Fly Trap – v6
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v6.html
(editing
version 3)
Edited
November 9, 2013
“Like
the Venus Fly Trap – v5”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/11/like-venus-fly-trap-v5.html
Edited October 24, 2013
“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v4”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v4.html
Edited October 11, 2013
“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/10/like-venus-fly-trap-v3.html
Edited December 26, 2012
“Like the Venus Fly Trap – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap-v2.html
December 20, 2012
“Like the Venus Fly Trap”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/like-venus-fly-trap.html
edited
February 11, 2014
“hiding
in the ice – v9”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/hiding-in-ice-v9.html
edited
January 4, 2014
“hiding
in the ice – v8”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/01/hiding-in-ice-v8.html
(editing
version 5)
Edited
September 28, 2013
“hiding
in the ice – v7”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v7.html
(editing version 3)
Edited
September 28, 2013
“hiding
in the ice – v6”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v6.html
(editing
version 2)
Edited
September 25, 2013
“hiding
in the ice – v5”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/09/hiding-in-ice-v5.html
Edited
August 2, 2013
“hiding
in the ice – v4”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/hiding-in-ice-v4.html
Edited
December 26, 2012
“hiding
in the ice – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v3.html
Edited
December 21, 2012
“hiding
in the ice – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice-v2.html
December
21, 2012
“hiding
in the ice”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/hiding-in-ice.html
Edited
December 26, 2012
“Animated
/ Evil – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil-v2.html
December
20, 2012
“Animated
/ Evil”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/animated-evil.html
Edited
December 26, 2012
“A
latent danger – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v3.html
December
20, 2012
“A
latent danger – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger-v2.html
“A
latent danger”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-latent-danger.html
Edited
December 26, 2012
“Smiling
in the freezing – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/smiling-in-freezing-v2.html
December
20, 2012
“Smiling
in the freezing”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/the-water-changing-life-giving-elixir.html
Edited
December 26, 2012
“A
frozen trap – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap-v2.html
December
20, 2012
“A
frozen trap”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/a-frozen-trap.html
Edited
December 26, 2012
“was
the road innocent – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent-v2.html
December
21, 2012
“was
the road innocent”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/was-road-innocent.html
Edited
December 26, 2012
“Did
the ice know – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know-v2.html
December
20, 2012
“Did
the ice know”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/12/did-ice-know.html
series
of new poems
also
about my father’s death,
after
reviewing poem by Jacob Montgomery,
“Icy
Lanes”,
(see
more of his poems at:
http://soggytractor.wordpress.com )
and
exchanging emails with him about that poem
and
my father’s death
2/14/1991
&
Edited
August 22, 2013
“eyes
not shut – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut-v2.html
August
22, 2013
“eyes
not shut”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/08/eyes-not-shut.html
a
poem in conjured after reading poem
“TATTOOS AND ATTITUDE”
https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2/posts/503630106394453
by Chip Bergeron
https://www.facebook.com/chip.bergeron2
http://www.authorsden.com/chipbergeron
&
Edited September 20, 2012
new poem, “Did you brace for impact”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/did-you-brace-for-impact.html
&
Edited September 20, 2012
“Mile Marker 19 – v5”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v5.html
&
Edited September 12, 2012
“Mile Marker 19 – v4”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v2.html
editing version 2 below
&
Edited September 12, 2012
“Mile Marker 19 – v3”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/09/mile-marker-19-v3.html
editing the original again
inspired by reading it at Poets’ Corner
monthly poetry reading,
at the Suncook Senior Center
September 10, 2012
&
edited June 6, 2012 (adding an additional last stanza)
“Mile Marker 19 – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2012/06/mile-marker-19-v2.html
&
October
2, 2011
Did
You Hear Her Cry
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/10/did-you-hear-her-cry.html
after
rereading earlier poem,
“Mile
Marker 19”
&
Edited
April 23, 2013
“No
Life in Your Eyes – v2”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2013/04/no-life-in-your-eyes-v2.html
February
11, 2011
“No
Life in Your Eyes”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2011/02/no-life-in-your-eyes.html
remembering
the 20th anniversary
of
my father’s death, February 14, 1991
written
at the House of Purpose coffeehouse
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/Purpose/298439882520
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/The-House-Of-Purpose/357853918881
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/event.php?eid=132438993489979
Hillsboro,
NH
February
11, 2011
&
new
poem February 11, 2014
Where
you are scattered
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2014/02/where-you-are-scattered.html
posted
March 22, 2004
written
2/26/2001
Adam
Asked
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/adam-asked.html
posted
March 18, 2004
written
March 6, 2001
Meticulous
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/meticulous.html
posted
March 17, 2004
written
3/2/2001 and 3/5/2001
The
Submariner
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/submariner.html
posted
February 18, 2004
edited
April 25, 2015
Home
Again – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/home-again-v2.html
edited
April 23, 2015
Your
final resting place – v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/your-final-resting-place-v2.html
edited
April 25, 2015
Ashes
– v2
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2015/04/ashes-v2.html
March
2, 2001
“Ashes”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/ashes.html
posted
February 18, 2004
March
2, 2001
“Home
Again”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/home-again.html
&
posted
March 10, 2004
written
April 3, 2001 8:47am
Demons
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/03/demons.html
&
posted February 8, 2004
original version written 5/20/2000
“Mile Marker 19”
http://raymondafoss.blogspot.com/2004/02/mile-marker-19_08.html
posted to my blog on February 8, 2004,
as the 15th poem
put on the site -
about my father’s fatal car accident
near Mile Marker 19
on the Spaulding Turnpike
Rochester, NH
February 14, 1991 at 7:02pm
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